October 2009
34 posts
“Reveal not every secret you have to a friend, for how can you tell but that...”
– Saadi (1184 - 1291)
My day THUS far
Despite waking up to a text from B, gag me, I had the most productive day! I turned in my application to be part of the Center For Service In Action Funding Board and finally was able to pass/not pass my Astronmy class. And boy, that was QUITE a journey! I luckily ran into my friend M, and we walked to all the places we needed to go to finally end up at the Registrar.
I ran into N too. It wasnt...
Maybe
Maybe it was meant to happen.
Maybe I wasnt meant to go.
Maybe everything has happened for a reason.
Mayeb this is fate keeping me fomr something that could have ended horribly.
Maybe this is a good thing.
If only i had shame. LOL
“Living well is the greatest revenge”
– Colin
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I asked Him again about my jacket. Why do I do this to myself? I’m always waiting and I despise waiting. My heart is going on overdrive. I hate feeling like this. I makes me unbearably sad. I am in an awfully sad mood. Someone please cheer me up. Anyone.
compliement
Today I had the most flattering experince. In class I had two guys to my left and one guy to the other side of the guy I was sitting next to, leaned over and wrote on his friends notebook. Later on in class I looked over wondering WHY this dude hadnt taken a single note wn, and saw that his friend had written “cute” with an arrow pointed in my direction. Needless to day I was ECSTATIC.
untitled
Is it bad that the highlight of my day is not going to econ discussion and NOT seeing Bradley today? I dont know why, but I get nauseous when I think of him. Even hangning out with him! ..And he wants to hang out. But I don’t. Sighh. WHAT DO I DO? I don’t want to be mean! I know he’s looking for friends, but he is not the type of person I want to be friends with. He gives me the...
My Best Friend
.. is my older brother. I love him and he is my rock. He is always there for me and knows me inside and out.
What happens once he doens’t have time for me anymore?
Voicing My Fears
I fear alot of things in life. What I fear most is losing those around me. I don’t ever like to think that as life goes on I will lose friends. As selfish and odd as it sounds, I adore friendship, maybe more so than I do currently with family (because they are a constant love, while friendship is bulit upon). Some may say that I may even lean too much on friendhips. I can’t help it,...
ANGER
I let Him borrow my jacket. Not gonna lie, its a freaken legit jacket. Its purple, and pink, and teal. It is a throwback 90s jacket for real, and I let Him borrow it. AND HE HAS NOT GIVEN IT BACK TO ME. I gave EVERYTHING back, and the one thing he has is my jacket and HE LET SOMEONE BORROW IT.
I want it back. NOW.
My Day
I wake,
I breath,
I brush,
I comb.
I dress,
I eat,
I drink,
I wash.
I pack,
I zip,
I shrug,
I run.
I pant,
I board,
I ride,
I walk.
I sit,
I write,
I doze,
I wake.
I pack,
I smile,
I sigh,
I’M DONE!!
Reason
The reason why I put that quote up so much is becuase I need the reminder that not everything I want will go my way. Not everyone will want me as a friend, not everyone will like me, and not everyone will understand who I am.
I am my own person.
A person who still needs to find who they are.
A person who is still learning.
A person who still is learning the harsh lessons of life.
I would not...
“You can be sad about it and it wont change, or you can be happy about it and it...”
Burning Desire...
to become a RA for Freshmn dorms next year. FOR REALZ.
EW
My DreamBoat is annoying.
Glowing
Today I was told I was practically glowing. I think it is becuase I found an interest. I thrive on loving, and I thrive on crushes. I have a crush and I am estatic. I AM a happier person, and I DO smile much more. Why does a guy have this much of an effect on me?
.. Well, nonetheless, I am happy to finally be able to say that I am happy. :)
The end of my day wasn’t to swell though. In the...
THE BEST DAY THUS FAR
MY DREAMBOAT ASK ME FOR MY NUMBER TODAY. I AM SOOO HAPPY HE IS SOOO HOTT!! SO SO SO DREAMYYYYYY AND RUGGED AND MANLYYYYYYYYYYYYY
DANCE PARTYYYY →
“Rain signifies a new beginning- a new day, moment, life, anything you want.”
People I saw on campus today...
Jonathan, Chery, Clifton, Thanh, COLIN <3, Lindsay, Mike, Kevin, and Bradley my dream boat.
I finally had the courage to ask my DreamBoat for his full name to add him on Facebook.. TOO BAD THEYRE LIKE 593 searches for his name! FML. ohwell, I’ll just have to ask him tmmrw in class! Hehe. Weird thing was that he saw me in a sad mood, and I think it threw him off. Well, people are entitled...
RollerCoaster Tuesday
Up and down, and up and down. Today has been the most oddest day thus far. I woke up from dozing back and forth for about two hours. I finally rolled out of bed at 11:45 and it was a wonderful lazy awakening. It was a slow morning though. I immdiately turned onto my side, grabbed my bright pink Anthro book, and proceeded to catch up with my reading. It was a productive time.
I showered and felt...
“You can be sad about it and it won’t change, or you can be happy about it...”
“So much to do, so little time.”
Frustrations
Well, before I go on a rant of what has been bugging the heck out of me, I would like to congratulate myself on FINALLY cleaning my room. I now have enough hangers to hang all of my clothes up and I sure did breath out a sigh of relief once I got every thing all organized… I wonder how long this will last. I also just had lunch with Kevin and it was so nice. He’s such a nice guy and...
“Karma is a bitch”
Mornings
I used to think that I would enjoy late mornings in, but turns out I’m not too big of a fan! Maybe becuase of my cycle, but I’m not sure. Lately I have been waking up and I’ve been blue and moody. I’m not to keen on starting my day, but then I feel like getting out of my apt is what will make my day seem as though it will officially start.
I feel really behind in my...
Wenesday.... felt more like Thursday
It was a good day. I baked a cake. I ate ramen noodles. I saw my spopper crush. But then I had lots of classes… more to come! lol
“You’re such a drama Queen”
broken heart
I’m so tired of having a heavy heart every day. I can’t stand it, it hurts so much.
My Sad Dream
I woke up in my purple sheets with a heavy heart.
I dont know what cuased me to dream such a dream, but it was very odd. I dont even think I was even part of the dream. I was an onlooker? There was a nurse, I assume who is me, who worked in a hospital. i guess there was some Earth epidemic so people were quarentined in the hospital. I was designated the childrens ward. There was this little...
my little secret →
An Exceptional Monday
My day started off officially at 10:30 today. I suprisingly didn’t wake up while my roomate was getting ready for work. I woke up and took a shower. I took an incredibly long time getting ready for school which invovled a long shower, finding the right outfit to wear to my ASUCI interview and doing my makeup.
Haha, I feel bad too becase I pretty much forced my roomate to uproot her boots...
“The highest power is the power to be happy- here, now.”
– Anonymous 