November 2009
16 posts
Waiting
I abhor waiting. I realized that I am such a little princess in getting what I want. When I want something, I get it. Or something along the lines of it. But what I want in Irvine does not coincide with what I want at home.
I am such a different person at home than I am in Irvine. I was planning on going back to Irvine a day earlier so that I can go to Disneyland on Sunday. I got the go-ahead...
Crying
It feels as though it has been for too long since my last emotional purge. I had quite the cry at Jto’s bday party tongiht. I realized that I’m so scared. I am scared out of my mind about how much I like M. I think of him so much, its frustrates me.
When I like someone, I LIKE someone.
omg my eyes hurt. i should stop blogging at night. goodnight
Disneyland
Today was the third Disneyland I went in a row on a friday. Does that make sense? That means that for the past three weeks, I’ve gone to Disneyland every friday.
Today was a lovely time though. I got a nice solid 1 hour with M all to myself. It was very comfortable and slick. We held hands. And I was very happy.
More to come! Too sleepy. Goodnight!
Cuddle Bunny
This morning I woke up to a text from Marby and it pretty much was an apology for missing my test because he feel asleep, then finishing it off with a good morning.
I wanted to reply asap with, No problem! Good morning cuddle bunny!
…. AHAHAHAAHAH yeahhhh I know for a fact that my roommates would not allow such thing. BUT let me tell you WHY I wanted to call him my cuddle bunny. Last...
Norte Studyroom
I’m sitting in a cold Norte study room and thinking about how disappointed I am. Is it disappointment that I’m feeling? I guess I can wind it down to feeling Blue. I’m not exactly sad, but more melancholy. I could listen to emo music and I wouldn’t be uspet with it.. I think it would more relax me.
I can’t stop thinking about (well, kinda cant stop) what happened...
Wise Freshman Boy
chicki5251: which one would you prefer for me?
OwtA mii LeagUe: hahaha uhhhhhh
chicki5251: TELL ME
OwtA mii LeagUe: i would say the take it slow guy lol
chicki5251: I MUST KNWO WHAT YOU THINK
chicki5251: ohhh the slow one?
chicki5251: yeahhh i think im more down for that one too
chicki5251: i just ont want to tell john, you know!
OwtA mii LeagUe: allows for more time to decide how you...
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Saturday Morning
This morning I woke up in a jolt. I was supposed to go to the Farmers Market with Chery and Sarah, but luckily, turns out that we all slept in in. So after hanging up the phone with Chery I was wide awake. Oh well, no super late monring for me! I headed over to the bathroom and brushed my teeth, did my morning wake-up rituals etc. I thought little chaotic thoughts in my head whilst I was doing...
insecurities
I am beginning to feel insecure.
I wonder if I can be secure.
Your previous was thin and petite
while I look down sad and in defeat.
I’m always aware of how I feel
in stature, in height- what is ideal?
You’re so easy to talk to
while i struggle to push through
my fears
my tears.
The thing is, there is another
who doesn’t act like every other.
He’s kind with a...
You make me smile
Enough said.
Dream Interpretations
Lately I have been intensly mentally interpretating my dreams.. then I remembered the wonders of Google. I interpret my dreams and DEFINATELY apply them to life. The very first dream I looked up was when I dreamed that my hair was so long, it went past my butt and I was afraid. I remember feeling afraid and TURNS OUT that it may have been about Molly! Because dreaming about hair means that you are...
“yeah for like the first couple weeks
all i ate were salads
cause i was so...”
– Andy C.
too scared
once upton a time there was a boy
who swept me off my feet.
turns out he was a toy
of the popular fleet.
i was never cool enough
and was always kept a secret.
then the day came
when we agreed never to meet.
my eyes never seemed to dry
cause all i ever did was cry.
then you came along.
at first you were too cool
then it had been too long
and now im too scared.
i know you have been...
too long
its been too long since my lips have touch another
too long since ive felt this way.
i wonder if im ready
i wonder if your true.
im afraid of getting hurt
im afraid of hurting you.
its been too long since ive thought like this
its been too long since my very last kiss
too cool
i think hes too cool for me
im intimidated
hes so funny and nice
but i still think im not good enough
he was homecoming king in high school
i was homecoming attendent
i wonder if he likes
man.. i like him too much
someone new, someone fun
why do i do this to myself?
Weekend Reflections
So today I had a pretty good day. My parents had picked me up so we have lunch and catch up. At first the original plan was to go to Boiling Crab, but it was ridiculously crowded. Apprently on Sundays Santa Ana is incredibly crowded becuase after church, everyone goes out to eat! But all went well becuase we ended up eating at Brodard- the most delicious nem noung rolls in all of SoCal. The funny...
