December 2009
38 posts
Rain is
not my cup of tea. I dont enjoy it one bit. I feel like it imprisons me. Because once everything is wet outside, I never want to set one foot outside. And that is the worst feeling of restlessness when you cant leave the house. I mean, I can leave, but I DONT WANT TO. WETNESS IS NOT COOL. My shoes get wet, then my socks, then I sure my feet will fall off becuase theyre so cold and uncomfortable.
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FOUNDATION
I am a woman! I can wear womanly products on my face now!! I had a lovely day with my mother. I got spoiled rotten.
Victory fist pump.
“The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.”
– Mark Twain
"It's no big deal"
I think it’s ironic when you tell me that Matt and Nat are too drugged out for you to hang out with becuase thats the same way I feel about you.
I knew you before you did all that. Before you did the blow.
I knew you when you thought jean skirts from Hollister and padded bras were the shiz. Now you go and belittle me and my world with your indirect jabs. You say that you hate girls who...
My Work
He deserves it <3
I wish I could take back
my present. I saw you wearing it at pho. Creme v-neck with marbled forest green horizontal stripes. You dont deserve it after breaking my heart.
NINE Trailer →
I really really hope I get to watch this movie today. Ever since I saw the trailer on Fuse at school, I’ve been dying to watch it. Who wouldn’t want to watch a movie that is sprinkled with such movie stars with a whole lot of singing and dancing numbers (and that fact I adore Kate Hudson)? WELL GOSH, I CERTAINLY DO!
Cousins
I couldnt have asked for a better Christmas. I am so happy and so content with my family. All my cousins were at my house where we sat and caught up with with life. All the girls were in my room where we talked about boys, school, and just life in general. It was so lovely becuase we’re at the age where we can all talk to one another without having to censor ourselves. I just get all happy...
I am the most
incredibly jealous person sometimes. It startles me.
Gag me.
You know when you know yourself so well, but you cant do anything about it to change it? Well, you try your hardest to change, but why bother when its only a brief change and then youre back to how you originally were? I don’t know. Sometimes Facebook is my worst enemy. I wish I can adopt a blase attitude where I don’t give...
Happiness!
Lately I’ve been moaning and groaning about how I never get any stuffed animals as gifts anymore. I don’t have anything to keep me company in bed while I sleep and I don’t have anything to lay on top of my freshly made sheets.
But then LO AND BEHOLD, I came across the Build-a-Bear my cousin gave me for graduation in ‘08! I realized that all the accessories were only kept...
CuteOverload →
The title says it all. Brace yourself to become overwhelmed with cuteness. This site never fails to put a smile on my face.
“SPOP is like the carpool lane to finding yourself.”
– Anonymous
“There are vibrations.”
– Daniel Tran
You outta watch out
These past couple of days has been quite the photo shoot for me. I look at the pictures and do double takes. Damn, is that what I really look like? There is SUCH a big difference from how I see myself from my perspective compared to what is captured on film. I like to believe that the camera adds 15 lbs, but who am I kidding? My life is not a movie. It is reality. And reality is that my face is...
“Always think the unthinkable. You don’t have to do what you’re...”
“Do all the good you can,
By all the means you can,
In all the places you can,...”
– Anonymous
Contridictions
I find myself such a hypocrite. I remember vividly telling someone (MQ) that when I have friends or anyone special, I prefer quantity over quality. I think I only say this because once upon a time, a DBag said the opposite to me (Mike). And because of my incredible ability to hold grudges, I go about and try to prove that quantity is much better then quality. But I come home and I find it...
Internet
Society, and myself is so dependent on it. It sucks.
I wish I had internet at home. These past few days I had alot on my ind.. but I had no outlet. I really do adore you Tumblr.
“Never feel guilty about your happiness. Life is short- seize joy where you can.”
– Book of Happiness
Party Board Games
I was going to name the title of this blog Card Games.. but at the last minute I changed it. I don’t know why, but eh. What can I say? I have done it already.
Anyhow I’m in Simi Valley right now at a family friends dinner party. It was the most precious dinner set up. There was the adult table and the kids table. We had our own Hot Pot, and I must say, it was delicious. It was all...
Oops!
I joined a group on Facebook because it had MQs name on it. Then I realized that it was his and his ex’s Facebook group… WHAT THE HECK. TALK ABOUT A FREAK OUT. I feel so stupid I didn’t realize until I actually looked at it.
Warming up
I was asked if I was warming up going out.. like officially. I am I guess. Slowly and surely. I don’t really know why I’m so hesitant. I know that he’ll treat me nice and right but what I can’t understand why I’m so scared. I said so, and was assured it was alright. The lead up was kinda dramatic though. “Promise you won’t get mad, but I have something to...
"I'm so happy"
Is what Mrb kept telling me all evening when I was hanging out at his house. It is so nice to hear someone say that to you. It made me feel so happy being told that I make someone totally happy when I am doing absolutely nothing!
Mrb was also really excited that his Dad remembered my name. It was thumbs-up noteworthy. Sweet. And I sat comfortably and had easy conversation with his parents at...
Annoyed
That is the perfect word to describe my mood right now. I got a phone call from MQ and ended up getting passed around to two different people before I finally go to the person from who I got the missed call from. I don’t know why it rubbed me the wrong way until I talked to HS and concludede that that was so immautre. I’m not going to go on and say that I’m the most mature person...
4:55 am
I just finished a deep conversation with my roomate. I don’t know if she feels as though she really got to know me- but to be quite frank, it takes a lot of time and comfort to really get to know me. We’re just not on that level yet, and I don’t know how I think about the idea of letting her see the vulnerable inside of me.
Trust is a must in any relationship with me. That and...
FIRE ALARM
The fire alarms were set off when I was sitting all alone in the Norte Study rooms. I thought my heart was literally going to jump out of my chest! I felt like I was going to barf, but kinda composed myself. I told myself that I wasn’t the only person awake, it is finals week. But no, boy was I wrong. I had to walk through ghost town with loud blaring alarms and flashing lights. It was like...
“Don’t flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable...”
– Oliver Wendell Holmes (1809 - 1894), The Autocrat of the Breakfast-Table, 1858
One Fine Tuesday
I had quite the productive and enjoyable tuesday today! I had a gloriously slow morning which I enjoy so much. I took a hot shower, then finished it off with a hot bath, laying in complete slience with no external sounds and thoughts around me. I guess you can say that it was a ‘Me’ morning bathroom ritual.
Then I cracked down and read over all my Anthro notes in prepratation of my...
Things I Like
I like when you reach for my hand when we’re walking,
and I like when you put your arm across my shoulders.
I like when you kiss me in the car,
and I like when you kiss me on the forehead.
I like that you tell me when you’re thinking of me,
and I like the way you tell me the same time I’m thinking of you.
I like when you tell me that you’re completely yourself around...
First Rain of the December
I’m sitting in my room and listening to the sounds of rain. Some people say that the sound of rain is melodic, but sometimes I find it to be inconsistent and a little annoying. I wish I had brought my rain boots to school, but its alright. I just have to endure the rest of this week and then I’ll be home and I’ll have my rainboots. Thus will begin the many adventrues home in...
Flake
Just moments ago I was told by my roomate that I have to be careful with losing all my friends if I continue down the path I am going down right now. When I heard this I was in shock. H is the most blunt and honest person ever, Hearing things from her is at times refreshing and rings true, but sometimes its a stab to the heart.
I took into consideration what she had to say, because after learning...
“BIG MOMMAS IN DA HOUSEEEEE!”
– My roomate is a drug dealer LOL
Jumble
Everything is all jumbled up in my head. I cant seem to really think straight. I tried to think everything through in my bath, but I still couldnt put together a coherent thought. It was like a long, warbled blur of Mrb.
Today I hung out with him and I cried. I was overwhelmed with everything- my feelings for him, my fear of getting hurt, and just remembering back on M. It was pretty...
Realize
At this very moment I am listening to Realize my Colby and this is fitting my mood right down to the dot.
I have come to realize that when I talk to people, the only thing that I can really talk about is Mrb. Kinda embarassing.
Two things to mention. Last night he invited me to go to his Dad’s Holiday Party this Saturday. That means ADULTS. PARENTS. Do I mention ADULTS? And the thing that...
