February 2010
64 posts
Oh No!
My underachieving tendencies have been bit in the butt! I have just learned that CPA requires a Masters. Darnnit. Here, I thought a Bachelors would be dandy.
I've noticed
I’ve noticed that my recent entries on my tumblr have been very very emo. I look through my blog and even I’m not interested at what I had to say. It’s so boring and whiney, it’s not even a creative outlet anymore. I used to love making up little cupcake poems, now I don’t do them anymore. People say that teenage angst is the best creative outlet, but I think that...
She
is beautiful. Blonde, tall, skinny. Blue-eyed with jutting hip bones.
“You wish good things and good things will come to you. Thats why its called...”
– My mommy
Personal Perception
Today I saw Him. I had dressed up today, living to up to my “Look good, feel good” mantra today for my midterm, and I saw Him. He did not see me. I feel as though my efforts have been wasted. The cherry on top this bitter sweet day was when I turned around for one last look, I heard a “Hey!” and there she was- a tall, blonde, skinny girl. The exact definition of societies...
Dear ____________,
Dear Dad,
As much as I love you, I don’t believe you when you tell me that I can choose my own major.
Love,
Trung Ga
______________________
Dear MQ,
I want you to know that for the past 4 days I have cried because of you.
Sincerely,
Monique
_______________________
Dear UCI,
I would like to tell you that you have been the msot cruel to me. My efforts do not sway you in anyway.
...
Nothing
Nothing is going my way. I am doign awful in school. My petition for Physics did not go through. I currently have a C in it, and I am not doing well in Econ, or Psych. I don’t know about Bio Sci though. I got a pretty good B on the midterm, but THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. This quarter is not like last quater. I wish I had straight A’s for the rest of my college career. After achieving that,...
I lost a little bit of my soul.
I have done something bad, I have done somehting that I am not proud of. I have done something that I wish I had not ever done. I am such a bad person. These are the repercussion. A heart that feels like it has been torn in half and a heart that has been stomped on.
I can’t do this anymore. It hurts to much when you do this to me.
Hmmmmm
I was fiddling around on facebook and I decided to change my Relationship Status from “Single” to a blank option that was offered. MQ and I are not bf/gf but definately exclusive. We’re dating each other.
When we had our two hour talk in the rain I deicded to test how he would react if I asked him what I meant by ‘you can talk to guys’. I asked him if he meant I can...
Four Days
I have gone to the gym for the past four days. All in a row. Going to the gym isn’t as bad as you think. It close and the after effect are wonderous. I went tonight with Kiy after our night of indulgence and she told me that if you MASSAGE your cellulite spots, it’ll even out!! I WANT TO DO THAT!
My next goal: going to the ARC and checking out if they have foam things that Kiy was...
BEST INTERVIEW EVER
I just got back from my 1:40 pm interview and I DOMINATED!!! I’m so HAPPYY!! Yo, Head of Middle Earth, shook my hand TWICE! I left my interview with such high confidence and so happy! I had a lot of fun doing this interview. I felt like I had great answers and even if I don’t get this, this was a a great experience.
I am happy. SO HAPPY.
MQ is still a butthole though. Lol.
Wake up
I woke up and had a hint of hysteria lodged in my chest.
It hurts so much.
I have my interview today, but I don’t feel like smiling.
This is possibly the worst month ever.
I decided I hate February.
I hated it as a child, growing up in an empty house-
always alone, always without parents.
Now I hate it as a teenager.
Pink and whites and reds and hearts.
I never liked Valentines.
...
Being Sick
Being sick sucks.
You can’t talk to someone close, in fear of getting them sick, you can never share food or drinks.
Being sick sucks when you wake up in the morning and your chest is full of pressure and every breath is a struggle.
Being sick sucks when you blow your nose so much, you have that dry itchy patch of skin under your nose.
Being sick sucks when your confidence is at its all...
AHHHHHHHHH
Gerad Butler was the Angelina Jolie’s love interest in Tomb Raider?!?!? OMGGG. How crazy! Without 300 or the Ugly Truth I never would have known who he was!
Cancelled Class??!?
This morning I woke up. I took a shower, which is a BIG deal for me since I hardly ever shower in the morning now, and woke up to a text from R. CLASS HAS BEEN CANCELLED AND OUR MIDTERM HAS BEEN POSTPONED FOR A WEEK!! YAYYY. Never before has this happened to me! It’s usually me, who decides that I will not be attending class. Now here, the professor is telling me that I don’t have to...
Personality Quiz I took
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(Reading this gave me goosebumps, because I had a conversation with a friend of mine and we concluded that I don’t allow people to get to know me so well....
“You miss the moments, not the people.”
– Jenn K
BEST DAY EVER!!
I got a call back for Individual Interviews of RA of Freshman Dorms, and CA for the On-Campus housing! IM SO HAPPY!! And to top it off, I had some BOMB ramen for lunch AND I’ll be going on my very first semi-spontaneous ROAD TRIP TO NORCAL!!
Santa Cruz and San Fransico, HERE I COMEEEE
100% Completely Homesick
I won’t be able to go home this weekend, next weekend, and the weekend after that.
My heart is breaking.
Exhausted.
I walk around daily with giant bags under my eyes.
I really should start going to bed early again (considering I have 8ams).
Inspirational
Today I saw my Spopper. I had asked him if he had applied for SPOP. He said unfortunately no. No one had kept him updated, and he missed the deadline. I assured him that its okay! You have many years.
He bows his head, swings his foot around and says, well, next year will be my lats year here. HE IS A FRESHMAN WITH JR STANDING. OMG SO SMARTTTT. But he reassured me that he was going to apply next...
worst day ever
You know its the worst day ever if I blog more than twice a day. This has been a shiteous past two day. I got a midterm grade back, and it was awful. I mean, I knew I did not do so well, but I didn’t except to do so under par. I saw MQ today. We went to BCD, and I have realized that I notice how people eat. And I have noticed that the past two guys that I have liked hunch over thier food,...
oh my god.
LOL dogs is my new obsession. I am DYING in the ILC right now. I LOVE PUPPIES!!
Puffy Eyes
This morning I had the hardest time getting up. I was constantly pressing the snooze button and just couldn’t seem to rouse myself.
I had spent the night last night, in tears. Tears that rolled down my face, tears that made me sob, tears that made my voice catch.
“Hey, please don’t get mad when I tell you this, but I called Sarah today because I thought it was her...
I want to breathe
wordfxuck:
in love like I have never breathed before.
I have never been in love and shying away from it has made me so lonely.
I really have never been in love. I’m not ready for it yet, but someday….
It never ceases to amaze me.
It never ceases to amaze me how cold you seem to me. You were my friend first and now, all of a sudden I was brushed to the side. I understand that she is so much funnier, cooler, and warmer. But I stopped initating for a reason. You were always here anyways because she called you. Then you started calling her- the middle woman was no longer needed. You starting only hanging out with her, calling...
Chipotle VOID
I ordered a steak burrito online, and ended up wanting to void my payment and order. Too bad there wasn’t a option to do so. I called in and waited 20 mins for the employeer to work out my situation. She never called back.
Apprently she called back, the wrong number of course, but luckily it was voided.
When ever I call in, I always feel so mature. My tone of voice is confident, my lexcion...
"indifference"?
I heard once that the best way to get over soneon is by indifference. You mentally block them from your mind, not talk to you friends about them, and overall just stop thinking about them.
I had woken up this morning, studied, then turned on my computer and did my Sunday morning Facbooking. I stumbled across Angels pictures. Colin had had a birthday and omg, he is so cute. If anything, thet click...
