May 2010
48 posts
*insert cynacism here: bubbles and space →
i know for damn sure that i’m a relationship person. i just can’t help it, as much as i try. though many might view me as distant and even scathing at times, if i care, then i really fucking care. any time i’ve liked someone, no matter how long or to what extent, i imagine this bubble that…
my exact fears and thoughts… but said more eloquently.
chain of events.
Sucks how in one instant your night can be ruined. How seeing one thing can make your heart burst in pain. You glance over, and there it is. The one thing that really gets at you. No matter how amazing your day was, and how many laughs came with it, in an instant you hurt. Insecurities come bombarding left and right. You can’t stop them, you can’t think rationally. They come one after...
am i a little too...
girly?
I was all of a sudden hit by an insecurity that has never hit me before. I realized that the people I hang out with are more on the confident side. They are not incredibly feminine with the frills, and the lace, and the pearls (unless situation calls for them). They are down to earth with basic jeans, cool vintage tops, and one of a kind kicks. Not that I’m judging, or not that it...
Food
Food is an amzaing link between the human relationships I hold. The friendships, the relationships, the happiness-ships? Haha, this past week has been full of lunches, dinners, and breakfastes with people I just met, people I’ve known since freshmen year, or just over the summer.
Sitting down and eating food that you both are excited to eat is such an, I dont want to say intimate, but you...
Lost, and never found
I was just on Facebook, looking at some old La Salle High School pictures. And I knew some of the girls who were on swim with me, and there it was. The blue washed ‘06-‘07 girls swim sweater. I had lost mine at the Long Beach City College swim meet, and the very next week, Allison all of a sudden had a sweater. The whole season I never saw her wear the team sweater until I lost mine....
thoughts in bullet point
- lap dances are so degrading
- endless food at the house
- dire need for pho
- free music at mason park with people dressed SO COOL
- chiense calligraphy contest
- sticki picki, with the cutest sleepover and BEST happy text ever
- unspontaneous
- maxi dress nipslip
- near death with no music
why, hello again
It really has been quite a while since I’ve written something. Actually, I probably had written something a couple of days ago, but I am so used to writing at least one entry a day on my tumblr!
This weekend has been a very good weekend. It was jammed packed with things, but one thing it really lacked was studying. Oh dear. I’m hoping to catch up tonight, but it doesnt seem like I...
Today
Families. After going out tonight and meeting all sorts of people, it gave me a little taste of greek life. To have family lines left and right. Aunts, Uncles, twins, cousins. It seemed endless.
Someday I hope to have my own family. And as of now, with my limited experiences, I really would like a family through SPOP or my own biological family. The one that I will produce in the future, haha.
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Time
I have lots of it.
Baby Caterpillers
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can be cute?!?!?! SO CUTEEEEE
National Geographic
I remember seeing this article when I went home over winterbreak. Nature is such an amazing thing. My father’s library is full of National Geographic magazines and they are so much fun to flip through. My childhood consisted of flipping through magazines, never reading the articles, but just looking at all the pictures. Now that I think of it, National Geographic was a big part of my life....
goodbye
Facebook and tumblr. Au revoir til my midterm is over on Wednesday.
Day After, Dream
Last night was the most realistic dream. Real in a sense where there was nothing surreal in it, there were no dancing fields of flowers, or hills full of majestic horses.
My dream consisted of shopping malls, cars, and parking stuctures. OOoooooh, the more I write this out, the more I’m analyzing this. I’m getting ahead of myself! AHHHH, fingers catch up! But anyhow, I guess you can...
Weeks
6 weeks of my life. Past. Gone. Whizzed by.
BUT to say, I have no regrets. Plegding for Sigma Psi Lambda was quite the experience. It helped me learn that I really can get through anything, and only reinforced the known fact about myself. The fact that when I don’t really have my heart in anything, I don’t try at all. I half-ass it. Haha. Well, and without it, I never would have met...
whoops
I thought things were going along well. I could see her wall and everthing. But now I can’t. I’m blocked again. I think it was because I mean tweeted her. Sigh, oh petty me. I care.. but not really.
This is why I should learn self censorship and realize that not all things are private. That I shouldn’t expect anything I put on the internet to remain a secret even if I’m...
Deep (calming) breaths
I realized that I am the worst person to prioritize. I am so lazy, and I don’t want to do anything. Once I’m in the mood to be productive, I will be productive. But once I hit that brick wall, there is no going around it. I will be lazy and unproductive for as long as it takes. I have so much to do and accomplish this weekend, yet, I do nothing about it. I don’t take charge and...
Homesick Blues
I’ve only been back from Pasadena and in Irvine for 2 hours and I already am in my funk mood. Wanna, outta, gonna be back soon, hometown!
The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has...
internalogic:
thescapade:
sophiaaalu:
kidsqueaky:
Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore...
Home
It has been so long. I am so ready to go to similarity. To comfort. It is my escape, and I am more than willing to run to it, with arms spread wide open.
I realized that being here in Irvine the past month and a couple of weeks has been so busy, so stressful. I enjoy a packed schedule with places to be, and people to see… but once in a while. I think I was raised, or possibly have...
nervous
I get flashes of nervousness on the scalp of my head. Theyre like hot flashes, but placebo.
