I want you to know that you can be happy with out the company of ________. You don’t need them as much as you say and feel you do. I think the reason why you are always so down on yourself is because you base your happiness on their moods. I will always be there for you as a friend, because I love you dearly. But when you text me late into the night, and tell me that you are so hurt, so sad, and so pissed at them, it tears me into pieces. It makes me feel as though I am an awful friend because I can not be there for you. If I was home, I would drive over to your house in a heartbeat, and I would bring you chocolates and make you feel as though youre not alone.
I’ve told you so many times that happiness comes from the getting rid of desires. The desire to know and be everywhere at once. The desire to be the alpha female. Girl, you have to be content with you have and how you live at the moment. Tell them if you are upset, but don’t harbor those feelings because all it does is make your burden so great it hurts.
You are strong and you are beautiful. Don’t let her get you down. You are better than that. Yes, you have been hanging with them practically day after day, but a break once is a while can be refreshing too!
I can’t to go back home next weekend, and see you and everyone again!
YES YES YES!! THis is exactly what I have been looking for the past 2 weeks. I’ve found it online, now I must find it in stores. UGHHHH. I want, I want, I want. I’ve got some store credit all handy on a card for me, so all I need to go is find it and buy it.
I’m also watching Top Chef, and I must say, I love cocky chefs. And its the best when they win. Oh Angelo, “I won again”. TEAM KENNY. Thier sandwhich elimnation round was so funny, oh ciabatta bread, how I creave you with some oil and vinegarette…
… You know I have lots of time on my hand when I blog. ROOMIES COME HOMEEEEEEEE
I finally got my date with my sista from another mista, all to myself. We had a date at the Spectrum with dinner, dessert (crepes) and shopping. Let’s just say today was a glorious day of retail therapy, and now I will start from the beginning.
K called me up while I was watching Robin Hood in my little comfy niche of a corner I call my loft. She took me all the way to Best Buy to buy the new Arcade Fire cd that came out today (which was the same exact thing Hannah did for the Tegan and Sara album) and took me for my very first Chick-fil-A meal! It was so nice to talk so comfortably with someone I’ve just met, boyfriends, future plans, anything! But alas, all good things come to an end (K said this was the last time she was going to eat with me since she has a one-lunch rule LOL oh sarcasm) and I drove as fast as the wind to make it to my dentist appointment.
NOW, let me tell you about my dentist trip. I thought I was going go in for a fast visit, a clean up, and turns out I was in for a ROOT CANAL. I was all situated on my massage chair, watching AFV, hands all wrapped in the hand wax treatment then BAM! My dentist comes and whips out a HUGE syringe and numbs my left jaw and DRILLS my tooth. Thus, a suprise root canal. I was like a puppy with my tail inbetween my legs when I left the office. So I treated myself to a drive, and some retail therapy. Fashion Island, you are godsent.
My favorite purchases, two necklaces:
I was so eupophric after my purchases, I was excited to show them off .. but the house was empty. I puttered around the house and was ALONE for a solid 2 hours. It was awful. I am so not used to being alone yet. In pasadena there was ALWAYS someone at home, always somewhere I can go to, and always people I can call up. Here.. not so much. LUCKILY, H came home and we had out date.
Wahoo’s Tacos with a conversation that literally defined “burst into laughter”. It was HILARIOUS. #1, as soon as the burrito touched the table, Hannah immediately kneads the burrito so the cheese melts evenly. The waitress full on laughs and there was a moment where S came up on her “heart monitor”. Oh grandma laugh.
Then INTENSE talks, catching up, and over all just smooth-flowing loving conversation with H. She acknowleged me as one of her best friends and you know that feeling when youre really happy? And your heart swells, and your chest hurts a little because you’re so happy? I was aware, but to hear it is a whole different story. Its like an exclusive little club. But no suprise, multi-tasking is not something we both can do. Urbanoutfitters, you’re sale is BOMB. My favorite purchase, snake pattern sandels:
Then we went and ended the night with a Trio Treat crepe (nutella, strawberry, banana). Awkward ice machine, “Have a crepe day!”, and Santa Cruz talk. Then I proceeded to try on all of Hannah’s new (Thrift Store) clothes and attempted to try help her put all her clothes in her closet.. but I kept getting in her way. Haha. Now its bonding time with K! YAYYYY!! OM is getting a the home vibe now!